I am sure that this will upset some people but my goal is not to please people. My goal is to please the Lord and to do His will. My goal is to hopefully be able to explain God’s truth to people so they do not one day end up in hell.

Galatians 1:10 Obviously, I'm not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ's servant.

Too many in this country do not have their priorities right when it comes to serving the Lord. I want to touch on several things to use as examples. I am sure that once again people will unfriend me on Facebook, they will say that I am full of pride, they will say that I am judging, they will say that I am racist, etc. Some will choose to quit contributing to this ministry as so many have when they do not get their way.

Matthew 5:10 God blesses those who are persecuted for doing right, for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs. 11 "God blesses you when people mock you and persecute you and lie about you and say all sorts of evil things against you because you are My followers. 12 Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven. And remember, the ancient prophets were persecuted in the same way.

I am not exactly sure why people think that when I post about what the Lord is doing through this ministry that it has anything to do with pride. It has nothing to do with me but it has everything to do with Him! I am merely a messenger and a servant. I am nothing without Him! I am very excited to be used by Him on a daily basis. I would say that I post on somewhere between a quarter and a third of what actually goes on in this ministry. I have a number of people including some seniors that miss the posts when I do not get them out. There is not near enough time to do more. I want people to know how He is moving and encourage others to get busy for the Lord. If we are truly in Christ we should be excited about what the Lord is doing in different ministries.

Galatians 6:14 As for me, may I never boast about anything except the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ. Because of that cross, my interest in this world has been crucified, and the world's interest in me has also died.

The bottom line is that I must be the messenger the Lord has called me to be. I refuse to be a people pleaser! I refuse to fit into someone’s club by going with the flow! People that do this are going to one day stand before the Lord and it will not be good. In my examples although I do not like to talk about “color” I will use two white people and only one black person. This should keep the Black Lives Matter people from calling me a racist. I always have to chuckle to myself when someone throws the racist card at me because in the last over 17 years I have probably worked with people with skin color darker than mine as much as anyone in the country. I have fantastic relationships with people with skin color darker than mine.

Alright now it is time to vent about a few people. I will start with Lady Gaga. I was sickened to see the positive responses of her singing the National Anthem prior to the Super Bowl. I will excuse anyone that does not know that she is a devil worshipper. If you google Lady Gaga/Satanic you will see plenty of information to back up what I am saying. Again, if you didn’t know that, that is one thing but if you did would you give praise to Satan if he had a beautiful voice and was to sing it himself? Last night you heard from one of his demons. In this country the Lord is definitely thrown into the backseat by worldly celebrities, sports figures and many others. Why is it that people do not make a stand for Christ as they do for these people? I know the answer to that and it is because they are really not “of Him”. This morning on my ride into Durham I had the radio tuned to “K-Love”. I had it tuned there for the very last time! I choose to call that station “K-Lame”! They were actually praising Lady Gaga for her performance. I have heard so much on that station that opposes the Word of God. The problem lies with professing Christians wanting to go with the flow instead of standing for the Lord and calling things out for the wretched way they are! I see more and more every day why Matthew 7:13-14 says what it says. There are very few “narrow way minded” true Christians in this country!

Matthew 12:30 "Anyone who isn't with Me opposes Me, and anyone who isn't working with Me is actually working against Me.

The Amplified also says it very well…..

Matthew 12:30 He who is not with Me [definitely on My side] is against Me, and he who does not [definitely] gather with Me and for My side scatters.

As this crazy world gets crazier there will be many that will fall away from following Jesus! The Word of God is clear on this. The Word says that even the righteous will be scarcely saved! How can people be so foolish to think that their lame so called Christian walk will lead them to eternity with the Father? Judgment is coming people!

1Peter 4:17 For the time has come for the judgment to begin from the house of God. And if it first begins from us, what will be the end of those disobeying the gospel of God? 18 And if the righteous one is scarcely saved, where shall the ungodly and the sinner appear?

1Peter 4:17 For it is time for judgment to begin with the household of God; and if it begins with us first, what will be the outcome for those who do not obey the gospel of God? 18 AND IF IT IS WITH DIFFICULTY THAT THE RIGHTEOUS IS SAVED, WHAT WILL BECOME OF THE GODLESS MAN AND THE SINNER?

Very few will make a stand for Jesus Christ and I find that absolutely pitiful! I see so many that sit back or go with the majority when they could glisten for Jesus!

Mark 8:38 Therefore whoever shall be ashamed of Me and of My Words in this adulterous and sinful generation, the Son of Man shall also be ashamed of him when He comes in the glory of His Father with the holy angels.

This bring me to the second person I would like to speak of and that is Peyton Manning. Angie and I went to my daughter and son in laws house to watch the game with them and our precious granddaughters since we choose to not have television stations. I wanted to watch the game primarily because of liking Manning. I had read clips of what looked like him having a relationship with the Lord. I wanted to see him retire with a victory. As always I hoped that he would give credit where it is really due and that of course being to Jesus Christ at the end of the game. I was sickened to hear his pitiful comment about drinking a bunch of Budweiser’s and a lame reference to “talking to the man upstairs”. I have never in my life heard a person with a true relationship with God refer to Him in that way. He displayed himself as your typical “american christian” which differs greatly from being a “follower of Jesus Christ”. I lost a great deal of respect for the guy. I wouldn’t watch him if he was to play again unless he was to repent and truly get right with the Lord. I see no one of the caliber of Tim Tebow. I pray that he never changes. He has stood and been attacked so many times for standing for Jesus.

Now I will comment on the last one and that is the big cry baby, fornicator and racist Cam Newton. Again, you have a guy that is in the spotlight and could be a great example for the masses of struggling youth in this country. A guy who professes to be a Christian! He recently got “his girlfriend” pregnant and was applauded by the world and “professing Christians” for behavior that will send him to hell if he does not repent. He should have been named “Fornicator of the Year”. What he does like Manning, is set an example for youth and others that look up to them. Making a mistake is one thing but stand up and admit that you were wrong so it does not cause others to follow down the same “wrong path”.

I recently glanced over an article where he was saying that he was not treated fairly because he is black. Please! Give me a break! I am so sick of hearing this racial whining! Oh yes, this is where I will be contacted about being so racist but so be it. I am going to speak the truth. I speak the same truth when I am in project areas or wherever because I want people to wake up from this curse! A friend recently sent me a video entitled Black People Are Not Christian. My first thought was whoa, if I was caught with something like this would people ever talk. I recognized that it was by Pastor Manning, a black pastor who I believe is in New York. I had heard a message from him years ago and he spoke the solid truth then so I thought when I got time I would check this out. What I found again after watching it was that he again spoke the truth. This truth of course would label him “Uncle Tom” in the comment area.

He talks of how black people are “black first” before being Christian and the fact that this cannot be! I am sure he is not talking about ALL black people. I know it is not true because of friends that I have. I do see exactly what he is talking about though in my daily ministry. A true Christian is not concerned about the color of their skin. This would fall under the “old things are gone and all things become new” when you are TRULY saved.

2Corinthians 5:17 This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!  

The Amplified even says it even better…..

2Corinthians 5:17 Therefore if any person is [ingrafted] in Christ (the Messiah) he is a new creation (a new creature altogether); the old [previous moral and spiritual condition] has passed away. Behold, the fresh and new has come!  

A person that clings to their former behaviors and heritage have not been truly saved. The person loves their skin color more than they love Jesus! The last time I mentioned this I was attacked big time! I am not talking only of black people having this ignorant mentality because of course you have white and other ignorant racists too! I encourage people to go and watch Pastor Manning’s message on YouTube. Most will not be able to watch it because they will not be able to stand the truth.

Getting back to Newton, he again has the ear of young kids and he can easily influence their thinking. His cry baby behavior last night was absolutely pitiful for the youth of this country to look upon. With leaders like this it is no wonder why the youth that I deal with are in such pitiful shape. Even this afternoon while ministering in one of our projects I was so torn by how messed up the kid’s lives are. Racial division is one of the devil’s biggest tools for the destruction of people’s lives. I pray that it will go away but it will not because as I said “you will always have ignorant people OF ALL COLORS who love their skin color more than they love Jesus”!

Okay I am done, let the flaming arrows begin flying! Seriously people, my desire is that people will wake up before they must bend their knees before The Holy God and have to give account for their behavior while on this earth. So many that think they are right with Christ are going to wake up one day to find themselves in hell for all eternity. His wish is that none should perish and that should be the will for all that are truly in Christ. I know that I will be attacked in a number of ways for this but it is worth it if just one person wakes up and realizes they have been wrong then repents so they can spend eternity with Jesus!

WITH JESUS ALL LIVES MATTER!

I received a phone call recently from a guy that wanted to get together with me. He said that he and his hockey team had collected some money and that he wanted to give it to me and learn more about the ministry. I asked him how he found out about us and he began to tell me the story. He said that back in December he was sitting at a traffic light and that he was thinking about what the Lord would want for him to do. He said it had really been eating at him to get involved in helping in the Lord's work. He said that just as this was coming to him I pulled up beside him in the van.

He said that he felt a message strongly from the Holy Spirit that he was to contact me and that he was to help us. We met at Ghetto Mac in the Village last Saturday. We had a great time and instantly were friends that were going to work together to make an impact for Jesus. Ang and I will be getting with him and his wife soon! We just never know what the Lord is up to. Things were very tight for this month and the $475 that he handed me really helped us out! The Lord is so awesome!

THEY MUST BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE

I had a situation in the jail yesterday where an inmate who had been released last summer had again been arrested. He hadn't actually been arrested but he was shipped back to Durham from prison. He had stopped by our headquarters back in the summer after not doing what he had told me he was going to do upon his release. He was with a woman and I asked him where he was living. He said that he was staying at the Budget Inn. I looked at the two of them and asked "are you having sex"? I think they were both looking for a rock to climb under. He got me aside then told me that he was. I told him that he was a fornicator and a liar and that he was on his way to hell. I was hard on him because he had taken over for a fantastic leader in the jail that had been shipped off to prison. He as many do had promised to get involved in the ministry and not to return to the old life.

Yesterday he tried to make cheap excuses and say that he really did not do what he is accused of. I again was very hard on him as I hit him with scripture on every lame excuse that he had. I told him that what he was experiencing was the fruit of a sinful life! He finally cracked and confessed to the fact that he new that he was not doing right. I then started to put him back together by telling him that I care for him and that I see the potential that he has to make an impact for Christ! He knows the Word of God but I always tell guys like him that the devil too knows the Word of God. You can't just talk it but you also must walk it! We again are on track for when he gets out in August. I told him that if he would have died in all the mess he was in that he would be in hell right now. I told him to praise the Lord that he still has breath and another chance to get it right! Pray for Shawn!

WHAT THE THUG LIFE DOES TO PARENTS

I promised a gang member (I hope to soon say ex-gang member) who I visited in the Durham County Jail yesterday that I would stop and see his parents to see how they are doing. I have been ministering to this man for close to 6 years. His mom and dad approached me at a murder scene on Hyde Park Avenue while a body was still lying under a sheet in the street. They were a very upbeat couple then seeming to have their lives together but they were very concerned about their sons ending up the same way. They said that they were both locked up in the jail and that they had heard about me working with gang members then asked if I would go see them. I promised them that I would and both of them are my friends today. The older of the two is probably the most hardcore gang member that I have ever personally met. I know of things that he has done that I hold in confidence praying that he will surrender to Jesus then make everything as right as it can possibly be. As he has told me things he will look at me with tears in his eyes and ask if the Lord can forgive him. Looking at pictures of "The Wall" at our headquarters really messed him up and I knew why. I assure him that with repentance and totally giving his life to the Lord that He will indeed forgive him. The conversation really went deep!

When I arrived at the parents house I walked in to see two people that really did not look like the people that I had met in 2010. They looked like they had aged 25 years. The house reeked of the pitiful, awful, disgusting smell of cigarette smoke! The mother never was without a cigarette in her hand the whole time I was there even after telling her that I had lost a wife to brain/lung cancers partly due to cigarettes. Cigarette smoke really tears me up and I felt sick as I drove home and now am just starting to feel better.

I had also heard loud voices coming from the house as I approached and that was them arguing with their son that I was with yesterday! This was in the hood people! No doubt that many of the things we had discussed yesterday were being torn apart by the devil! With what I heard I asked if I could talk to him and they handed me the phone. I asked him what was going on and attempted to guide him to the scriptures that I had given him to read yesterday. It was clear that the enemy definitely had control of him for now.

His parents profess to be Christians and at least when I got there were trying to talk to him about the Lord. I really like the parents but they may be Christians in their churches eyes but I do not believe by witnessing the fruit that they would be in the Lord's eyes. I always question a person truly being saved when they turn to cigarettes to get them through a situation instead of seeking the Lord. Getting back to the church situation, I know that it is said that they go to church. Many churches have people like this that say they are saved but they are never held accountable to the Word of God. I had to correct several things that were said by the dad because they went against scripture and the way I had guided their son yesterday according to the Bible. Even if it is in their house if they want me to help their love ones I will say what I need to say to keep things right! My next conversation with them will be about my concern about their souls. This gets really tough because what they consider to be Christian is different from true Christianity. I can tell this too by how messed up their sons are. There are many things that I cannot disclose that prove this also.

No doubt that this is what the gang life does to parents. Just yesterday he was concerned enough that he wanted me to stop by and check on them then he was already back to driving them crazy even more. I see the parents love for them but the gang life has taken it's toll. Such a rough situation for a son of one of gang members. He is in kindergarten and having to live among the smoke and chaos. I took time with him to talk to him about Jesus while all the craziness was going on.

This is one of so many different situations that I am working with. This situation has potential to go very bad. Please pray for wisdom, discernment, understanding and knowledge to me to work with this family. It's so important to get all of them to understand what a true relationship with the Lord really is. It is quite clear that somewhere they have been deceived.

The last I checked we have over 50 in the Durham County Jail accused of murder. I have been working with many of them. My heart really goes out to the kids which I mean the 16 and 17 year old's. I know from outside that the family support in so many cases is really messed up! When you hear the stories straight from their mouths it is really heartbreaking! Today I heard stories that would make most cry. I know that they tear me up but also create even a greater love for the inmate. Mother and fathers on drugs, mothers prostituting, dads being murdered young, dads beating moms, abandonment, alcoholics, pill addicts, etc.

I spoke with a 22 year old at length today. He is accused of murder. Since he was arrested he has come into the multi-purpose room every time I have been at the jail. I felt a real tug this past Tuesday that I needed to get in and spend some one on one time with him. I found out that I had met him before back in 2010 in the same pod. He was in with another 16 year old at the time. I ministered two years ago while the other kid was lying under a sheet dead! This has affected the one I was meeting with but not enough yet. He has lost other friends also to being murdered. I asked him about his relationship with the Lord and he said that he did not want to play with the Lord. He has a passion for music and he said that when he gets out that he wants to get into music. He said with the Hip Hop he would be doing alot of cussing so he doesn't want to play with God by not living for Him. It makes no sense now nor did it then! He said  that his passion for music is driven by a passion to get his mama out of the hood. He could not see any other way for this to happen. I said that he could either do music for Christ or he could do it for the devil. I told him that if he did it for Christ he needed to be real and not like the many bootleggers that are out there. I asked him the question "what percentage would you say that you are living for the Lord". He took a minute but came back with "70%". I said "ok, you were talking about that girlfriend of yours a little bit ago". What if your girlfriend would spend 70% of her time with you and 30% with another guy"? I then said "let's look at this another way, you said you were a Crip gang member right"? He said "yes". I then said "what if you spent 70% of your time with "The Crips" then spent 30% with The Bloods? He said "man, you know neither one of them would work"! I then said "exactly, neither will it work with you spending 70% of your time with the Lord and 30% with the devil. Our conversation was long and deep. I have a fantastic relationship with this young man now. I look forward to our next time together.

I met with another 22 year old accused of murder. I had never seen him before but had seen his name. An ex-girlfriend of his had asked me to stop by and see him. This young man looked so empty and lost! He had never been in one of my services. He said that at an early age he had went to church but had not been for a very long time. He was very difficult to talk to at first. As I continued to talk and tell my story there was a tear that appeared in the corner of his eye. I then started asking him questions and he started opening up. I told him about our wall and how he was a prime candidate to end up on it too. I told him that with the life he was living he would either be imprisoned or dead. By the time we finished talking he was thankful and open to talking about the Lord. I hooked him up with the pod spiritual leader to talk more. 

I met with a 17 year old who is accused of murder. He is doing fantastic and hungering for the Word of God! I am very excited about him. He even showed concern for his younger brothers. He asked if I would contact his grandmother and talk to her about going to visit with them. They lost their dad due to an anger rage automobile accident when they were very young. His mother has been out on the streets as an addict and I know the name but can't place the face. He asked me to look for her and try to help her get out of her addiction and back in their lives.

I met with the 27 year old gang member who he and his brother were destroying their parents. I had to tell him that if he doesn't get it together that he will put his parents in the grave early. I also talked to him about the fact that they are not saved and he agreed with me on that. This is a very tough situation but I am not about to give up on this guy. None of this family appears to be saved! This was the one where I visited the parents late Wednesday afternoon.

I spoke briefly with an 18 year old who is accused of murder. I met with him upon his incarceration and he wasn't excited about talking to me at all. This past Tuesday he sat in on my service. Today after I finished in the room that they meet for Bible Study in the afternoon he was the first one in there carrying his Bible. I had to mess with him some and we laughed together. Such a change in such a short time. The spiritual leader on that pod who is in for doing several murders does a great job of keeping The Word going forth!

I met with an 18 year old that is in for home invasions/burglaries and he is doing fantastic. He had a huge smile on his face when he first saw me then asked me if I had heard from his mother. He said that he talked to her about me and that she now wants to talk to me.

I was really hoping to meet again with Matt who I attended court for yesterday but I was very surprised that he had been shipped back to prison already. I feel very strong that he is going to be ok. I expect to get a letter from him fairly soon.

I met with several others too. I gave my testimony to many today and I always want to make sure to give God all the glory! I told inmate after inmate that I am nothing without Christ. I assured them that He can turn any situation around if they will completely surrender to Him. I am blessed to be able to go into the Durham County Jail the way I do. I commend the Command Staff for the job they do! The jail gets a bad rap from people that have no idea what they are talking about. Earlier today at our cafe I had a question from a guy about the jail. I could tell that he was going to be negative about it in front of a bunch of other people so I just started speaking positive about it. I told him and those listening that the jail is a good jail. The negatives are started again by people that have no idea what they are talking about. I told them that I am in the jail a great deal and do not see the things that are made up by the trouble makers.

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Yesterday I was trying to get out of the jail so that I could get some other things done then return again at 6. The jail staff kept telling me that another inmate had requested to talk to me. I kept rolling with them and was having awesome ministry going on! When I thought I was done there was still one more. This big white guy came out all tatted out. I thought this one was going to be interesting which it much indeed was.

He started telling me about how he had never wanted anything to do with the Lord then someone had slipped a book under his door while he was recently in prison. He actually is still in prison but is in the Durham County Jail to deal with some other charges. He told me the title of the book and it was a book that I did not like because it is not scripturally correct but the Holy Spirit guided me to keep my mouth shut. He went on to tell me about the book then got to the point of what had really turned his life around. He told me that it was what led him to start reading the Bible. He told me that he was "in the hole" at the prison because of a fight in which someone had tried to stab him. He said that all he has been doing is reading the Bible. He said that through reading the Bible he was able to see how the book was not right scripturally. This really made me feel better after keeping my mouth shut about my opinion of the book. I know there are times that I miss it in this area.

He went on to tell me of all the restoration that the Lord was doing in his life. He had told me that he had gotten into trouble by stealing to support a heroin habit. He is nervous about when he gets out and wanted to know if I would help him. I guaranteed him that I would. His court date was today and he received another 12-24 months for the additional charges. Some of his family including his mother was there. I got to meet them. He had already told his mother about meeting me and instantly we were friends as she hugged me and thanked me. This guy has spent the majority of his life behind bars since he was 16 and now it is like he is smiling from ear to ear because of what the Lord is doing in his life. He is receiving love letters from his wife who he hasn't had anything to do with for the last two years and also his kids too! Even after receiving the extra time with shackles on his wrists and ankles he had the joy of the Lord as he blew his family a kiss! His family is so excited about his new life with Christ! No one is more excited than he is!

He is now 32 years old. I look forward to working with him when he gets out. I know that he is going to touch many lives for Jesus! He asked me if he could write me and I said absolutely. The Lord is really moving through this ministry in the Durham County Jail. What a blessing it is to be one of His servants! Pray for Matt!

While I was at headquarters today I was trying to get things done so I could leave. I had people that kept coming in which of course is not a bad thing. When I was getting real close to leaving I noticed a very professional looking guy looking in the window which is not very common on Holloway Street. I opened the door then told him to come in. He said something about if I win people to Jesus here. Then he went in to his sales pitch. I sensed in my spirit that there was much more to this.

He started asking me spiritual questions and they were the kind that tries to justify one’s sin. He had also said that he too was a Christian and went to church in a neighboring city. The Holy Spirit revealed to me that he had a sex/lust problem. He started to tell me that he was struggling with some sin that he was NEVER going to be able to be set free from. I soon as he got the words out of his mouth I asked if one of his problems was lust. He downplayed it as “yea, that’s one of my problems” when this was going to turn out to what has been a massive problem for him. I told him to never say that there is a sin that he could not be set free from because what he was doing was giving the devil more power than the Lord and that is not possible!

He really started opening up to me as to what has been going on his life. His list contained cheating on his wife, strip joints, massage parlors, and lusts in his mind to go to other cities in the world that had a reputation for heavy sexual sin. He tried to say that the Lord knows that people are going to get involved in these things and that people can still be Christians “because everybody struggles”.  He tried to play the “once saved always saved card” which was a mistake. I asked him if he was aware that a person’s name can be removed from the Book of Life. He looked at me confused and said “that’s in there”. I said “yes, you’ll find it in Revelation 3:5.

Revelation 3:5 All who are victorious will be clothed in white. I will never erase their names from the Book of Life, but I will announce before My Father and His angels that they are Mine. - NLT

Revelation 3:5 Thus shall he who conquers (is victorious) be clad in white garments, and I will not erase or blot out his name from the Book of Life; I will acknowledge him [as Mine] and I will confess his name openly before My Father and before His angels. [Ps. 69:28; Dan. 12:1.] – Amplified

He went on trying to justify sin and I took him to the following…..

Matthew 24:12 Sin will be rampant everywhere, and the love of many will grow cold. 13 But the one who endures to the end will be saved.

I told him that a person cannot line up to run a race then pull up half way raising their arms in victory. I told him that it is the same with a relationship with the Lord. You have got to keep the faith and finish well in the Lord’s eyes and obedience to the Word of God is the key.
He said “but” and I told him to wait a minute as I gave him this…..

Hebrews 3:14 For "IF" we are faithful to the end, trusting God just as firmly as when we first believed, we will share in all that belongs to Christ.

Hebrews 3:14 For we have become fellows with Christ (the Messiah) and share in all He has for us, if only we hold our first newborn confidence and original assured expectation [in virtue of which we are believers] firm and unshaken to the end.

I explained these verses in detail and told him that I had a book in the works that had over 500 scriptures proving his belief wrong. I told him that I did not believe that he really believed what he was saying but hoped it to be true so that he could have his sin but not go to hell.
He then said “can I tell you some things”? I said “sure”. He went on to tell me how he had been a medical doctor across the country. He said that “he had been accused” of doing something sexual to a patient. He was placed in jail for it. He told me more of his sexual exploits. It was strange because he looked in my eyes and said “you don’t think I am saved do you”? I had started shaking my head no as soon as he said “you don’t think” because the Holy Spirit had revealed what was coming. When he finished the line I said “not for a minute”! He said “really”? I said “man, you are an adulterer and a fornicator among other things. I asked him when the last time he cheated on his wife was. He looked at the ceiling and started thinking out loud. He said “no that time was not cheating because it was only oral”. I said okay now don’t you start pulling that Bill Clinton stuff on me. Then he said “October” as tears welled up in his eyes and he looked so lost. A number of times he had said that he had to leave because his boss was going to be upset with him. I did nothing to hold him up other than answer question after question that he asked.

He told me of a couple “deals” that he had tried to work out with the Lord. It was like if the Lord did something for him then he would consider serving Him all the way. I said “man, think about it, you are pretty bold thinking that you can lay out ultimatums for God”! He said “then why won’t he just take it away”. He again said “I have to get going”. Then he wanted me to answer his question so I explained out free will to him. He then said “why can’t I just change”? I said “do you really want to know”? He said yes then I said “it is because you love sin more than you love Jesus”. He said “but I love Jesus”. I told him that he loves sin more or he would stop practicing it. Again, he had tears in his eyes. We went into a discussion about hell and I took him to the scriptures…..

Revelation 14:11 And the smoke of their torment ascends forever and ever; and they have no respite (no pause, no intermission, no rest, no peace) day or night

He was so entangled in sexual sin. To go from a medical doctor to a door to door salesman in East Durham! I asked him if he had any kids and he dropped his head saying “I have a 5 1/2 year old daughter. I told him that he was cheating on her too. He was done justifying and he was ready to listen. I told him that he only thought that he was coming in to try to sell me something but that I felt the Lord had led him to me. I told him that I was not even planning on being there when at the time he came in. The Holy Spirit had kept him there for over an hour!

He said he would do anything to be a doctor again. I said “really”? I said well, here you go just follow this scripture…..

Matthew 6:33 Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need.

He said "the Lord can really do that" and I replied that of course He can do anything! He told me that he wanted to get with me again and that he really needed help. It was funny because I had Zeke (our dog) with me today and I had kept telling him to go lay on the couch but he kept coming back to us. He said “your dog doesn’t obey very well”. I thought “do you really want to get into who obeys better out of the two of you”, but I didn’t.

He again said that he had to leave then I stopped him as I said “wait a minute doctor, I am going to write you out a prescription”. I then started writing down a number of verses for him to study. I handed it to him and he smiled. Matthew 24:12 is true that sin is running rampant everywhere. It doesn’t matter if it a man in a nice suit or a prostitute with a heroin needle stuck in her arm. So many are on their way to hell all around us! This man is just like so many that sit in the pews on Sunday mornings! I tell these stories to hopefully wake others up too. I tell them that hopefully others will share their faith on a daily basis. HIS wish is that none should perish and if we are truly “in Him” that should be our desire also.

As I left the Duke Regional Hospital to head just down the street to Hock Family Hospice I felt a nervousness come on me. In my flesh I would have been happy to never go in there again after all the feelings and emotions that took place back in November of 2011. Don’t get me wrong, I think that they do what they do well there. They did a great job with Eileen and we had no major complaints.

As I walked in the door I was taken back to all the locations. For those that do not know the story of how Angie ties into this I will tell of the things that I remembered so well. The first thing that I saw was the long table that I sat at with Angie toward the end when she asked me for an update on Eileen. During that conversation as I told Angie that she did not have long to live Angie placed her hand on mine. I did not think anything of it then other than her love and comfort which I feel that she would have done for anyone in that situation. This would come back to my mind at a later date. I did not have the relationship with Angie that Eileen had. I would talk to her very briefly as she came out to help with the ministry at times. Eileen would talk and talk about Angie after being with her. She would have me join her in prayer for Angie and the things she was going through. On several occasions I held hands in prayer with Eileen as she prayed for the Lord to put a godly man in Angie’s life. Eileen really loved Angie.

After I was told  the room number of the man I was there to see I started down the hall. I passed the visitors room that made me think of all those that visited and the many conversations I had there. I accidentally passed the room I was looking for and realized that I was at the door of the room Eileen had been in. There are so many memories in that room. I remembered the last time Eileen raised her tiny little arms to praise the Lord as the praise & worship music played. I remembered all the brokenness of the family. I remembered seeing Angie sitting there holding Eileen’s hand. There were so many other things that took place in that room.

After standing there for a short time I turned to go to visit Timmy. Timmy was a very troubled guy who I had many encounters with on the streets. He was a nice guy who had an awful problem with alcohol. I know that his sister will be reading this and I do not want to bring any hurt to her. As for anything that I post I pray that somehow, some way that it will help someone else in a similar situation they are doing through. I deal with so many people just like Timmy in nearly a daily basis. There are so many hurting families out there because of the loved ones being addicted to alcohol or drugs. As I sat in the chair beside Timmy’s bed looking at a man that I had talked to so many times I was so saddened to see in the condition he was in. As I tried to wake him so that we could talk there was only one time for seconds that he looked at me and attempted to talk. I asked him if he remembered me from Holloway Street and he said he did. He quickly went back to sleep and would mumble at times but never was able to communicate again. I believe that when I first met Timmy several years ago he had already severely damaged his body with the lifestyle he was living. I knew through our conversations that Timmy had, had a relationship with the Lord. Our last conversations he would talk much more of the Lord but I was trying to help him because he had hooked up with someone that had given him some false teachings. Timmy could be very stubborn, he did not want to hear me so he quit stopping by our headquarters. At his sister’s request I went and found him one day because she was in fear of his health and well-being. Timmy knew that day that I cared for him. I was glad to be able to bring his sister and brother in law the peace to know that he was okay at least for then. I prayed while beside his bed that even though to my knowledge right now he is still alive that he had true peace with the Lord. I will use the pictures and thoughts in my mind of Timmy to be able to minister to those that are in similar situations and pray that people will think about their end. Just last week the guy who was with Timmy the last time I seen him on the street stopped in and was talking me helping them that day. This was not about me at all other than being the messenger the Lord was using to work in this family and with his friends. I was torn as I stood up to leave and I must admit that I was angry with the devil that he had destroyed Timmy’s life and has and is destroying so many other lives.

As I was leaving my thoughts went back by that long table again. Something that the Lord had showed me when he was revealing that Angie would be my wife was her hand on mine at that table and Eileen’s hand in hers in her room. It would have been the furthest thought from my mind to think that when Eileen was praying for Angie’s husband that it would be me. I walked out of the building with so many thoughts racing through my mind but also as I looked at the van thinking I was done here for now which made me feel relieved. As I started to drive out of the parking lot yet another thought came to me and that was the emptiness that I felt 11-7-11 after I had gone in that room for the last time seeing Eileen’s shell laying there breathless. I was so happy for her that she was in the presence of the Lord, something we had so many conversations about toward the end. The feeling I had myself though was a feeling of being lost and not knowing what to do. After over 28 years with someone I loved so much it was over. Death is always a hard thing but I do not believe that there can be a worse time to go through it than with a spouse. I am not downplaying anyone else’s situation but a husband/wife relationship is such a close relationship if it is a solid relationship and ours truly was. Those reading this that have gone through it know what I mean. Again, I know that those that have lost children may feel that it the worst. With all respect, I am just telling the way I felt by my experience.

As I started to head home the Lord brought good thoughts to my mind. I then started thinking of how He has blessed me since then. I thought of my absolutely wonderful wife that he blessed me with. Angie is such an awesome woman who loves the Lord with all her heart. She has such a passion for making me happy. She has truly done that and continues to do it. We have a beautiful marriage and we are truly best friends! I know without a single doubt in my mind that the Lord answered Eileen’s prayer with a little smile on his face thinking “they would have never thought about it working out this way”. I am so glad and blessed today that we followed His plan. Angie and I believe that Eileen too was so happy also with the way things worked out. I praise the Lord for what He has done and continues to do in my life!

Psalms 30:5  Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning.

Jeremiah 29:11  For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome.

Yesterday was an extremely tough day! My trip to Durham Regional Hospital started the whirlwind of thoughts that I went through. I was visiting a 47 year old man who had been near death just a short time back. His father had called me and asked if I would visit his son. The first time I went up to see him he could not even talk. He had suffered a stroke on top of some other heavy health issues. His dad assured me that he knew the Lord. There was no way that I could communicate so for then I was taking his dad’s word. There are so many deceived people in this world! His dad is a very nice guy and very respectful but he like so many especially in this country are deceived when it comes to knowing what a true relationship with the Lord is.

2Timothy 3:5 They will act religious, but they will reject the power that could make them godly.

2Timothy 3:5 For [although] they hold a form of piety (true religion), they deny and reject and are strangers to the power of it [their conduct belies the genuineness of their profession].

I was very happy upon my arrival yesterday to find this man sitting up in bed and being able to communicate. He even remembered my name. As I began to talk to him about the Lord I knew very soon that he did not have a relationship with the Lord. If he would have died he would have gone straight to hell. People must remember that the devil “knows the Lord”.

James 2:19 You say you have faith, for you believe that there is one God. Good for you! Even the demons believe this, and they tremble in terror.

To know “of the Lord” and to “have a personal relationship” with Him are two extremely different things! The Holy Spirit revealed to me that true messengers of the Lord are also like “doctors”. We have the cure for people that if they take heed to it will keep them from spending eternity in hell. That cure of course is the Word of God and leading people to a “true relationship” with the Lord. The problem for us doctors is that people will not tell the truth about their true condition. They would not do this if they had a terminal condition and were talking to a medical doctor. They would want to get well. So many people do not place that the condition of their heart with Jesus as high as things that can go wrong with them physically on this earth. As one of the Lord’s doctors instead of going in to check their vitals I will go in to check “their fruit”.

Matthew 7:16 You can identify them by their fruit, that is, by the way they act. Can you pick grapes from thorn bushes, or figs from thistles? 17 A good tree produces good fruit, and a bad tree produces bad fruit. 18 A good tree can't produce bad fruit, and a bad tree can't produce good fruit. 19 So every tree that does not produce good fruit is chopped down and thrown into the fire. 20 Yes, just as you can identify a tree by its fruit, so you can identify people by their actions.

There are so many people in hell today and so many more that are on their way because they are not honest about their “true relationship” with the Lord! There are so many “fake Christians” that occupy the pews of American churches on Sunday mornings! They have removed themselves from the “life support” that Jesus offers. Some are deceived into thinking because they once prayed a prayer that they “are good” and that they can live however they want. They think that “repeated prayer” gave them “fire insurance” that will keep them from eternal hell. How wrong they are! If you do not stay connected to the Lord you are in BIG ETERNAL TROUBLE!

John 15:4 Remain in Me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in Me. 5 "Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in Me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from Me you can do nothing. 6 Anyone who does not remain in Me is thrown away like a useless branch and withers. Such branches are gathered into a pile to be burned.

The problem lies with not everyone can see this. They can fake people out by knowing how to speak some “Christianese”. In other words they know the words that good Christians say. These scriptures are so fitting for so many that are in American churches…..

Matthew 15:8 These people draw near Me with their mouths and honor Me with their lips, but their hearts hold off and are far away from Me.

Luke 6:46 "Why do you call Me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?

Titus 1:16 They profess to know God [to recognize, perceive, and be acquainted with Him], but deny and disown and renounce Him by what they do; they are detestable and loathsome, unbelieving and disobedient and disloyal and rebellious, and [they are] unfit and worthless for good work (deed or enterprise) of any kind.

It shocks me how many people take a disease such as cancer as and place it as a higher priority that their relationship with the Lord! In this country people will even change churches so that they can find other people with their same damaged heart condition that believe the lie that they are ok. This would be like someone having cancer and then they go and find another doctor that tells them that they do not have it and “are ok”. For example take the homosexual, they can go and find many churches today that will tell them it is ok. So even though “The Great Physician’s” word clearly says that they will die (eternally) the people will settle for the deceived false comfort of being told they have nothing to worry about. They will twist and turn God’s Word into what “they want to believe”.

2Timothy 4:3 For the time is coming when [people] will not tolerate (endure) sound and wholesome instruction, but, having ears itching [for something pleasing and gratifying], they will gather to themselves one teacher after another to a considerable number, chosen to satisfy their own liking and to foster the errors they hold, 4 And will turn aside from hearing the truth and wander off into myths and man-made fictions.

The devil sits back and laughs at the ignorance of professing Christians in this country. He has to be shocked at how easy it is to continue to lead so many Americans straight to hell! He has to be amazed that his same ole tricks continue to work in deceiving so many. For anyone reading this message today I pray that you are striving to walk in Holiness on a daily basis.

1John 2:6 Whoever says he abides in Him ought [as a personal debt] to walk and conduct himself in the same way in which He walked and conducted Himself.
 
1Peter 1:14 [Live] as children of obedience [to God]; do not conform yourselves to the evil desires [that governed you] in your former ignorance [when you did not know the requirements of the Gospel]. 15 But as the One Who called you is Holy, you yourselves also be Holy in all your conduct and manner of living. 16 For it is written, You shall be Holy, for I am Holy.

Hebrews 12:14 Strive to live in peace with everybody and pursue that consecration and holiness without which no one will [ever] see the Lord.

People must wake up to the scriptures above concerning Holiness! As much as it hurts us to accept that a loved one that was not striving to be Holy or walking in Holiness is in hell if they died, it is the truth. It is the truth no matter what false teacher or false doctrine you have come across! It is the truth no matter how many preachers that you have heard tell lies about people that have not lived for the Lord that sprouted angel wings and flew off to heaven. These lying so called preachers will stand in judgment one day before the Lord with blood dripping from their hands because they deceived people and failed to warn them of what was ahead!

Ezekiel 3:18 If I say to the wicked, You shall surely die, and you do not give him warning or speak to warn the wicked to turn from his wicked way, to save his life, the same wicked man shall die in his iniquity, but his blood will I require at your hand.

No matter what they lied to you about concerning the person if they were not right with the Lord they went straight to hell! The Lord will examine people’s hearts.

Job 13:9 "Will it be well when He examines you? Or will you deceive Him as one deceives a man?

Is there a chance that at the very end people can cry out to the Lord? The answer of course is yes! I do not believe for a second that it happens as much as people think and hope it does. It is not a huge group of people that want to truly give their lives to the Lord and live for Him.

Matthew 7:13 "You can enter God's Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. 14 But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it.

1Peter 4:17 For the time [has arrived] for judgment to begin with the household of God; and if it begins with us, what will [be] the end of those who do not respect or believe or obey the good news (the Gospel) of God? 18 And if the righteous are barely saved, what will become of the godless and wicked?

I pray that you are striving to have a deeper and closer relationship with the Lord every day. I do not want my relationship the same as it was yesterday. I want to be drawing closer and closer to Him every day of my life. I want to be more like Him each and every day! This message (prescription) may very well be for you! If not, it may be for someone that you love that you do not want to see them end up in hell. Will you swallow the “Gos-pill” or will you go on thinking that you are ok? Repenting, admitting and quitting sin are the keys to getting right with the Lord! People must remember that they can fool and deceive man but there is no fooling God! He knows it all and one day we will be judged for everything we did while on this earth! Are you truly ready?

Romans 2:16 And this is the message I proclaim—that the day is coming when God, through Christ Jesus, will judge everyone's secret life.

Romans 14:11 For the Scriptures say, "'As surely as I live,' says the LORD, 'every knee will bend to Me, and every tongue will confess and give praise to God.” 12 Yes, each of us will give a personal account to God.

Hebrews 9:27 And just as it is appointed for [all] men once to die, and after that the [certain] judgment,

I will be attempting to sit down with a couple families soon to discuss what you are reading. So often as I have said we don’t want to face the truth. Some choose to go by what they want to believe. This can happen while other family members or friends stay deceived. People want to believe their family, their friends, their pastor or their denomination over what the Bible clearly states. If this is you then you sure “AS HELL” better make sure you are right!

Proverbs 16:25 There is a way that seems right to a man and appears straight before him, but at the end of it is the way of death.
No one is getting into heaven on their mama, daddy or grandparents relationship with the Lord. We must daily be looking at ourselves and make sure that we are truly right with Him! I have actually spoken to many that think they can ride into heaven on someone else’s shirt tail. How deceived they are!

2Corinthians 13:5 Examine and test and evaluate your own selves to see whether you are holding to your faith and showing the proper fruits of it. Test and prove yourselves [not Christ]. Do you not yourselves realize and know [thoroughly by an ever-increasing experience] that Jesus Christ is in you--unless you are [counterfeits] disapproved on trial and rejected?

We must pray daily and be in His Word. So many will believe whatever is told from a pulpit. We must make sure that the person up there is telling you the truth!

2Timothy 2:15 Study and be eager and do your utmost to present yourself to God approved (tested by trial), a workman who has no cause to be ashamed, correctly analyzing and accurately dividing [rightly handling and skillfully teaching] the Word of Truth.

Even with people like the apostle Paul coming and speaking to them the people of Berea checked them out according to scripture to make sure that they were not being deceived.

Acts 17:11 And the people of Berea were more open-minded than those in Thessalonica, and they listened eagerly to Paul's message. They searched the Scriptures day after day to see if Paul and Silas were teaching the truth.

I refuse to be like so many out there that are people pleasers. Just like anyone else I want people to like me but I refuse to do it at the expense of one day having to stand before my Lord and Savior and give account for every word that was spoken from my mouth.

Matthew 12:36 But I tell you, on the Day of Judgment men will have to give account for every idle (inoperative, nonworking) word they speak. 37 For by your words you will be justified and acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned and sentenced.

I do not want to make someone feel good on this earth then have them one day lift their eyelids to find themselves in hell for all eternity! There are masses of people in this country that are deceived into thinking that they are going to heaven. The American churches are filled with them. It is time for people to wake up before it is too late. I was so grieved in my spirit yesterday to be looking at this man that would have been in hell if he died. To know that there are so many out there in the same condition left me with a sick feeling the rest of the day and evening. It left me with more of a drive to reach the lost! It turns out that this man does not live very far from me and he told me that he wants my help. I question at this point if he really understands how crucial all of this really is but I pray that he will understand as we get together more.

There could not be more fitting scripture to wrap this up with than the following. I know after what I went through yesterday that the Holy Spirit dropped this message on me for someone to take heed to. Also I praise the Lord for the challenges of yesterday because I know that today I am a stronger person in Him and I know that I can be more effective in doing His work! Praise His mighty Name!

Galatians 1:10 Obviously, I'm not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ's servant. 11 Dear brothers and sisters, I want you to understand that the gospel message I preach is not based on mere human reasoning. 12 I received my message from no human source, and no one taught me. Instead, I received it by direct revelation from Jesus Christ.

I had another awesome time of ministry today in the Durham County Jail. I started with a 16 year old that is accused of murder. He was very polite to me. I told him that if he wanted my help that I would do what I could for him. He was brought up in church but strayed. I believe that he is yet another victim of the "BM-BD Disease". That is "baby mama-baby daddy". What is happening is that in many more cases than not these kids do not have parental guidance. I witness this nearly every day! This is why you have kids as young as 12 year old doing home invasions! This is why you have 8 year old joining gangs! The grandmothers that once were the anchors of the families are not sucking on a crack pipe or shooting heroin! Someone must attempt to make a difference in these kids’ lives before they end up hurting someone or getting killed themselves. I am working with them inside and outside of the jail. For so many it is not their fault that they have not been given a chance at a decent life.
 
Next it was a guy who said that he is doing all the right things by teaching the Word of God and trying to direct the other inmates. He told me that he is in the jail because he is falsely accused. He kept talking about his wife then when we really started to get into what is going on in his life I found out that he wasn't really married. Like so many he has had "the fiancée" for years! We had a very good conversation but I had to show him that he has been living the life of a fornicator. He agreed with me that he needed to get his life right. I made it clear to him that if he did not repent of his lifestyle that he was on his way to hell regardless of how many he was trying to help. These people must be told the truth.
 
Next came a guy who I ministered to last week. When we met last week he had told me how everything was everyone’s fault and never did he claim any responsibility for his actions. He had requested to see me through a letter after coming to minister to his pod. I was very to the point with him after listening to his story. He wanted my advice so I gave it to him. I told him when he gets up in the morning that he should look in the mirror and he would see where all the fault lies. I explained to him that was he was going through was the fruit of HIS sin! Anyway, today he came in grinning from ear to ear! He had a breakthrough in his life and the Lord was really working in his life. He thanked me but I told him last week that the Holy Spirit had guided me in everything that I told him. It was the Lord speaking into his life and he is excited about the change. He is not blaming the system, the jail or anyone else but himself. I look forward to working with him much more in the future. The young man has great potential.
 
I went into the women’s pod next. I ministered to several prior to ministering to the mother of a Holloway prostitute who I have been ministering to for around five years. I tried to see her during the summer but she was released before I could get there. One of the other inmates went to tell her that I wanted to talk to her and I could tell that she wasn’t real keen on it but she came anyway. Her daughter has been a hardcore heroin addict. So many times I have sat with her and attempted to get her the help she needs. The daughter is currently incarcerated in another county. I was able to see many similarities in the mother and daughter. The very sad one was that they are both heavy duty drug addicts. The mom is a habitual felon drug addict at 54 years old. We had a great conversation. I talked to her about generational curses. I assured her that the Lord could take away all her mess if she would only COMPLETELY surrender to Him. She has two years of prison time to do then she wants to get with me to get into a solid Christian program to get her life turned around. I so much want to see her and her daughter happy. It is so heartbreaking to see people’s lives so destroyed. It was a blessing to see hope come to her when I said that we would help her when she gets out.
 
I spoke with a number of others with so many different situations going on in their lives. What the Lord had me speaking to them as I often do is complete surrender to the Lord will be the only thing that will change their lives. It is so sad that there are so many churches that are actually hurting these people by not standing on God’s Word! I am very familiar with these churches because I have worked with people that come out of them for over 7 years. There is a pattern with these people and many of them tell me the same stories. In our area we try to direct everyone to Shabach Outreach Ministries at the corner of Mangum and Corporation because we know that they preach the truth and also will spend one on one time to help people.
 
I was there for three hours yesterday and did not come close to seeing everyone that I needed to see. This seems to be the way it is there. I love ministering in the Durham County Jail and despite what the problem causers want to say, I strongly believe that Sheriff Andrews and his team are doing a fine job! Many people go on what they hear. I say this by experience and by spending many hours working inside of the jail. We must continue to infiltrate more JESUS!!!