Thank You Isn't Enough - Donna Edmonds
How does one ever repay being led to a new life with God? By never forgetting these moments in which God has shared with me. The moments he has spent with me, showing me the TRUTH behind all of the lies that Satan had tricked me into believing all of the years of my life up to this point. The way in which He has comforted me and loved me throughout all of the painful seasons, although I was unaware of Him even being there. The way in which He has cried for me when I was in the grips of my affliction, yet rejoiced with his angels in Heaven the day I surrendered completely to His will for my life. A God who loves an ex prostitute and dope fiend such as I was. All the times I worked in cahoots with the devil to seek out and destroy whomever I could, the HORRIBLE sinner that I was. God still...loved ME. The two of you, Pastor Terry and Angie... OH MY GOD THANK YOU JESUS (The Holy Spirit just smiled when I even thought of your names) the two of you, also, loved me anyway. Believed in me. Cared for me. Supplied my every need. Fed me physically and spiritually, daily. You two saw within me what even I myself knew not existed.
So how does one ever say "Thank You" for something like this? So many people use the word "Thank You" for so many things. "Thank you for holding the door open for me". "Thank you for picking that up for me". "Thank you for the compliment". (which this one is my point exactly). This is more than just a compliment to you. This is way more than just a simple "Thank you so much for everything you have done for me, I do appreciate it". After experiencing God's Grace, Mercy, and LOVE... "Thank You" just does no justice. It doesn't hold a candle to the magnitude of appreciation and gratitude in which I have in my heart for you two glorious followers of Christ. You have shown me what being Christlike looks like. You have shown me the definition of being holy by living holy lives. You two walk the walk. You reached out to me, took me by the hand, and said "Donna, come with us. You belong on God's team, and not only do we want you with us, we need you with us". So how on Earth could I ever just simply say "Thank You" and have that be enough to get you to understand that if not for the two of you... I would have never found JESUS CHRIST.
Jesus himself, Father God Almighty, is right here with me. Comforting me, smiling with me, restoring me, and filling me with the goodness of His Holy Spirit. Talking directly to me through The Word, books, videos, and other people to answer each and every single question I have about my life. He answers with such precision and perfect perfection there is absolutely no way in the world I could ever, ever doubt that He is real, and knows all.
God loves me, and believes in me. I love and believe in Him. And it's all thanks to you two. Thank You just isn't enough.
Well it's Sunday! How has your week with Jesus been? Have you had anytime with Him this week prior to getting ready to put your church face on this morning? This week in my church has been a tough one! I have had two murders, had to watch so many prostitutes walk the street as I wonder if I will see them the next day, I have ministered to so many addicts and homeless! I have had service after service this week! I am not trying to lift myself up at all! I strongly feel that what I do is no more than "reasonable service" unto Him! It's doing what he has called us all to do!
I am at a point of fullness and tears this morning! I watched a video this morning by Francis Chan that talked about how Peter did not feel worthy to be crucified right side up so he asked to be crucified up side down. I think of the awesomeness of the Lord Jesus Christ and I think to myself....please Lord, let me be more like You! I repeated this over and over this morning till I was in tears!
What will we do for Him today and really every day this week? Will we go to church today and sing four songs, drop a dollar or a check in the plate then listen to a message partially or fully sleeping through it? Will we think sing "Just as I am" and leave "just as you were"? I think of the 18 and 19 year old that no longer have a choice on where they will spend eternity. From what I have heard they both were gang affiliated. One has been in my sessions in the Durham County Jail before. I have not seen the picture of the other one yet to see if I knew him. I was at both murder sites yesterday with a sick feeling in my stomach.
Have you shared your faith with anyone in the past week? Month? Year? If not, doesn't it matter to you that people are dying and going to hell everyday??? Statistics say that 1% of professing Christians share their faith on a daily basis! I couldn't stand to not share it daily! I think I would explode not releasing His goodness and what He can do for people! At 5 something this morning I was sharing on Facebook with a young man I know from a youth residential treatment center that I once worked in. I called him out on some language he was using and it ended with him saying that he wanted scripture to help him cleanse himself for Jesus! Pray for Dante!
I will attend the funerals of the two that have died this week and most likely hear that "they are in a better place". I will hear the cries of love ones and friends. I will most likely hear some of the devil's music that helped them reach their fate. I must be there to minister His truth! I can not for a second stand by and continue to let these young people and others perish to eternal hell where they will be in torment for ever and ever! The devil is doing a much better job of destroying lives than "professing Christians" are a winning souls for JESUS!
Does anyone really think that they can stand before a RIGHTEOUS GOD and have Him be pleased when they have not spread His GOspel? When they have not made disciples? Will your hour or two in church today be enough for you? It won't be enough for HIM! This country has made a mockery of His Word and the way He wants us to live our lives! Please, if you are not sharing your faith start! It doesn't matter where it is at that you do it. Just do it! Eternity is on the line for so many!