More names continue to go up on our "Memorial Wall". I have been digging here and there to get the murder victims since we started the ministry in Durham. Yesterday I received an official list which was over 140!!! The wall will cost over $1500.00 before it is done. Each name costs $10 plus the other graphics that were needed.

I have no doubt that this idea came to me directly from the Lord. For over three months I was not led to put anything on this wall. So many people came in and said "why are you putting everything on the opposite wall and nothing on this one"? To tell you the truth, I got kind of tired of answering the question. My answer was always "the Lord has not told me what to put on there yet". About six weeks ago I was sitting quiet with the Lord when it came to me...."Memorial Wall". As I pressed in I knew that I was to place all the murder victims on the wall. At first I thought it was going to be an artist drawing the faces and having the names and the dates by them. I wanted to press in more to make sure that I was getting this thing right. A peace came over me when I said that I was just going to have the names and dates.

Now I had to press in to see what He wanted the Title of the wall to be. Then it was taking time to see exactly what scripture that He wanted up there. When I was led to Job 14:10 I thought "what"? I had never used anything from the Book of Job before as far as graphics. When I read the NLT version I could not believe it. It seemed like this was a new verse in the Bible.....

"But when people die, their strength is gone. They breathe their last, and then where are they"?

What a fit for the wall! Again people, the Lord has been all over this! Then Hebrews 12:14 letting the people know that if they do not choose to live a Holy Life that they will not ever see Him. I am sending this out to let people know in detail the importance of this wall in reaching the lost!!! I know that this is the Lord's will and it's His bill to get this done. I know that I must do my part to promote what He is doing! We have received help from two people. James 4:2 says "we have not because we ask not". I am asking for help! $1500 for a ministry our size is a major project. Never have we done anything like this as far as this much cost. What came to me when I started running the numbers was "how much is a soul worth"? As I pressed into this I heard "if just one got saved off of it wouldn't it be worth it"?

Already so many lives have been affected by it! This started from the very first day we started putting it up! I know that there is talk on the street because some that have come in have said "I don't want to look at it" and it is their first time coming in since we started last week. Some are afraid of it because they do not want to see the names of those that they knew that are gone! So many know that the fate of the majority of the people on the wall was HELL for all eternity! They do not want those thoughts on their minds! I have ministered so many times already saying "if these people could come back they would not live their lives the way they did prior to being murdered. (This of course excluding the children that were not able to make decisions for themselves)

Today, I ministered to the new 17 year old prostitute again as this time she was looking at the wall. I went through again concerning Crystal Baker who was severely beaten then stabbed 36 times, Wanda Spence who was strangled then her throat was slit before she was rolled in plastic on a hot 90 degree day and thrown into the woods, or Shon Williams who was shot right after having sex with a "John" or Kourtney Dawkins who was gunned down right on the corner where you have been walking past the last few days! I said "wake up girl before it is too late". She said "I don't know why you think I am a prostitute because I am not". I then said "everyone comes out to Holloway Street to take a walk and isn't it something how everyone keeps walking back and forth"? "Everybody wants to wear skimpy clothes too, isn't that something". She got the drift that I was not falling for any of her lies! So many others have come in to tell me what she was doing.

Today I ministered to four other prostitutes. I made the same statement to all four saying "you need to let me know if you are going to get your life right and if you are not I will save you a space on the wall". Two got upset with me. One said why would you say that to me, that wasn't funny". I said "it wasn't meant to be funny"! I said "if you stay doing what you are doing out here, you don't think there is a good chance of you dying"? I said "it may not matter to you but I am going to tell you what I go through when I hear a prostitute has been murdered". "I have received calls saying that a prostitute has been murdered then the fear of which one is it". I told them "no it is not fun or funny at all"! "The Wall" is stirring things up and I know that it will be the start of many coming to a true relationship with JESUS CHRIST!!! There are so many other stories that I will be able to tell people from those names.

I ask that you prayerfully consider being part of this! There are so many things that money is spent on in churches like larger buildings, lights and sound equipment, carpet, chairs,etc. Thousands are spent! I do not see any of that having such a direct impact on lost souls!!! We have twenty more names  that will be done in the morning then I am giving them 25 more to do by Friday. That's $450 then there will be more next week! The Lord said to do it and that is exactly what we are going to do!

Please help us! Please send your tax deductible check made out to Bull City Outreach to 5114 Huxey Glen Ct. Durham, NC. 27703 or go to our website www.bullcityoutreach.org then click on the donate button to use PayPal. Your help is so much appreciated! We are so excited about what is going on in this ministry!!!



I am continuing to post different people that have been murdered which will be stories to minister on from our Memorial Wall. We have quite a way to go on this project and only one person has helped so far. I strongly believe that this is going to be a major ministry area at our headquarters! Already it is ministering strongly to people that read it! Only $10 for a name to be placed on the wall which could help in reaching a soul for JESUS! We will be adding 20 more names tomorrow with many more to come. This project is going to most likely cost us over $500 but if it reaches even one soul won't it be worth it? We know that it was a "God idea" and that it will draw many to Him!

Tyaijah Hester 2010 - 2011 This was a heartbreaking crime scene to go to. I remember the sick feeling I had just being at the same place that this occurred.

The mother and father were not getting along and the mother had started seeing another guy. After an argument the father grabbed up the 22 month old and told the mother that "they were going to a better place". The father took the child outside and shot her just before turning the gun on himself. He also died. People had the idea that you could murder your daughter then murder yourself then the famous "R.I.P." The daughter will be with Jesus and the dad goes to hell! The message that I gave and will continue to give is that you can not live like this and expect to go to heaven! Another sad story that will minister to others.

Shakanah China - In May of 2011 a 13 year old seventh grader sat on the trunk lid of her mom's car texting a friend. Never did she think that her life would be over that day. She was in the line of fire as a van occupied by gang members drove by spraying the area with bullets because of a beef with an opposing gang. One bullet hit this little girl in the stomach killing her. We were there a short time later to minister and attempt to comfort a mother in shock.

We came back that night and provided a cookout for the family and all others that wanted to come. Many think they have a long time to get their life right. As our wall declares...."No One Is Promised Tomorrow". This is another sad story that will be ministered from our wall. Just days later there was a retaliation shooting where a 17 and 18 year old were murdered.

Kourtney Dawson died at the age of twenty-five just a couple months ago less than a minute walk from our headquarters. There are many stories but the bottom line is that she was shot and killed. As you can see in this jail picture, she lived a hard life. She received many beatings from a pimp. Many times she would have two black eyes.

She was a drug addicted young woman in a land that she did not belong. I know her grandma and she tried to help her. I talked to and ministered to her on many occasions. She was always polite and respectful to me. So sad that she is gone. I continue to minister to the pimp who is slowly making some changes in his messed up life. This is another story that will be ministered from our wall and it will be ministered heavily to the prostitutes. Some prostitutes already can not stand to look at the wall because of what it shows could happen to them.

It seems that I wake up daily thinking about the lost and those who have died without Jesus. My mind veers to what the professing body of Christ is doing about the massive problem of so many on their way to hell. With this I want to lash out but the still small voice keeps coming to me saying "do what I have told you to do". Each time I send an email out I see the list go down because of people unsubscribing. I think "people do not care" but that still small voice says "do what I have told you to do". This is hard on my flesh when I can go and see who is unsubscribing and then I think "I thought they cared". I can also check to see who opens the emails and who doesn't. The still small voice keeps saying the same thing...."just do what I have told you to do". I want to argue with the Lord and say "Lord, you told them to do the same thing in Mark 16:15 and Matthew 28:19"! I hear "I will deal with them, you do what I have told you to do".

I guess this is my toughest challenge in my life is to keep focused on His calling for my life. I just don't understand why there is not more of a hunger for the lost??? I believe that things really changed for me when so many people that I have ministered to started being murdered. To have an image and basically be able to roll a video in your mind of the last conversation you had with someone that has passed is tough. I think "why is it that only 1% of professing Christians share their faith on a daily basis"? Again, I hear the still small voice.

I have people coming to me saying that the Lord is leading them to give financially  to the ministry then they do not keep their word or I do not do things the way they think I should be doing them so they must hear from the Lord to cut us off without any notice. I want to lash out but again I hear the voice. I have people come to me saying that the Lord has called them to do this type of ministry then the enemy leads them away. I go weeks not hearing from them. I think if so and so was here they could do a better job of reaching this person than me. I hear the voice repeating the same thing.

We all go through struggles in  this life and I guess I am just letting those who truly care and who follow this ministry know what I struggle with. Please pray for me to be able to deal with this and to listen to that still small voice. For some that have not heard from me, I am trying to stay focused on what that voice is telling me. For years I have tried to juggle people like a juggler tries to keep all the balls in the air, I have tried to keep the people motivated and focused on reaching the lost. I feel the Lord telling me that if people really want to be involved they know where I am at and what I do. The biggest thing is for people to be doing what HE has called them to do. It has been spoken over me that the Lord is sending help and I must stay focused and wait for that help to arrive.

For me the major hurts in life do not come from the people on the streets, they come from people who profess to be Christians and even more from people who profess to be friends. How some of these professing Christians can say and do the things they say and do is beyond me? Oops! I just heard that still small voice again "just do what I have told you to do"! I'm done!

I am going to be sharing some of the stories that I will tell from the names on our Memorial Wall. This is Crystal who was a prostitute and an addict. We had many conversations and she was a friend. Our last meeting was one where she was extremely hungry. I remember handing her some chicken wings and she tore into them like a wild dog. She was in bad shape with her addiction. She told me that day that one day she would get right but she was not ready then. Several weeks later I was stopped by a guy who asked me if I heard about Crystal. I told him no then he proceeded to tell me that she was dead.

Crystal had been severely beaten then stabbed 36 times. She was dumped off along side a road. I miss her and so much wish that I had another attempt to steer her in the right direction. She was such a nice person but she was a "lost nice person". Crystal's story will go out to many especially the prostitutes who come into our headquarters.

You can help in hopefully saving someone from going through the same thing by helping us get the names posted on our Memorial Wall for others to see. Just $10 places a name and a story on that wall. Please prayerfully consider helping us!

This wall will contain all the murder victims since the ministry started in Durham in November of 2008. This idea came to me straight from the Lord! We started on it this morning (with the help of my buddies at United Graphics).

Already there have been people come in off the streets broken by seeing the names of family and friends. A prostitute who has been on the streets for a long time came in all excited to tell me that she will be starting a job at the newly renovated McDonald's next week. Jennifer stared up at the names on the wall and I thought she was going to start crying. She started saying "I really want to change, I really want to change but I don't know if I can". I could tell that she had a fear of being on that wall. I know also that she knew several people also. Another prostitute named April came in later and she too stared at the wall with a very straight face. She then looked at me and named three that were related to her in some way. She said "I am so glad that I am going to rehab next week".  Another prostitute did not want to talk about the wall. Even with that it ministered to her! The following scripture that came to me really makes them think.....

Job 14:10  "But when people die, their strength is gone. They breathe their last, and then where are they? 

This is exactly what the Lord showed me would happen! This is going to be an expensive project to complete. We could use your help! United has discounted the names to $10 each. Just the names will go cost us $500.  Could you prayerfully consider helping us with 1? 5? 10? We know that the Lord is going to touch many  more lives with this!

This is another view of where it lies in the room. We also have our new "Don't Go To Hell" up!

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